Misdirection

When did I lose myself???

 

Why do I yearn for someone that doesn't exist???

 

The seasons are changing...

 

Sweet summer mornings are falling into brisk autumn nights...

 

Ironic...

 

Coincidence...

 

I was free...

 

I am free...

 

But why do I want to be captive???

 

My body is untouched...

 

My mind unstimulated...

 

I lay like a lump...

 

As I watch others live...

 

As I watch others love...

 

Wish I could eat it...

 

Bask in it...

 

Wrap myself in it...

 

Relive it...

 

Reminiscent of the love that was made...

 

Here I am in unfamiliar territory looking for an answer...

 

It seems to not exist...

 

Am I missing something???

 

Did I miss an opportunity???

 

I'm stuck in neutral with my emergency brake engaged…

 

Afraid to disengage my life…

 

I have to live…

 

But what kind of life will I lead with no direction…

 

Misguidance…

 

Need GPS…

 

Time to pick a destination…

 

Set a goal…

 

Aiming for the moon…

 

I'll save the stars for someone else…

 

Destination…

 

Up…

 

Society is colorful

What's the difference between straight and crooked???

Is there a Heaven and Hell???

I know there is right and wrong…

But whose decision is it???

Whose right is it to pass judgment???

Politics…

Conservatives…

Politically correctness…

Orthodox society…

A closed minded person is selfish…

One-sided…

Blind…

Bored and jaded…

Taking everything and everyone for face value…

Making the world we live in unstable…

Stability…

Acceptance instead of tolerance…

Broadened horizons…

Open minds…

Color!!!

Dynamic!!!

Multi dimension!!!

Freedom!!!

All things that need to become more common…

The world is not black and white…

Or a whole gray area…

Things change…

Times change…

Society is changing…

Society is colorful…

Radicals…

Ignorance is insulting…

Not blissful…

Why hide the truth???

Why be a coward???

Integrate…

Blend…

Own your life…

Society is colorful…

So ask yourself???

What color are you???

 

 

Crush

I'm feeling things I haven't felt in a while…

What's happening?

The tides are rising…

Climax is building…

Senses heightening…

Crush…

When you hugged me my mind went blank…

When you kiss my cheek my tear ducts erupted…

My breath shortened…

Crush…

What's happening?

I need to know more…

I need confirmation…

I need some time…

Crush…

You grab me…

Pull me close…

In that minute I feel lifeless…

Crush…

Take control…

Kiss me til my lips numb…

Lift me higher… higher…

Crush…

Motivate me…

Entice me…

Keep me interested…

Crush…

Lusting…

Disoriented…

Let's play…

Crush…

There's nothing wrong with a little fun…

Crush…

Hurry…

Before my crush is lost…

Crush…

 

 

 

 

Dear John

What do you say when you lose someone special?

What do you do when the reality feels like a fallacy?

A joke…

A bad dream…

You were a fallen angel…

Your gift was laughter…

A gift you used quite often…

You weren't afraid of what people thought of you…

Fearless…

Strong…

Cunning…

Words that only just beginning to describe you…

Your reputation spoke for itself…

You got along with most…

Loved by many more…

You said whatever came to mind…

And meant every word…

The world lost a good one…

I misplaced a friend…

I'll see you later …

Friendship never dies…

Surreal feelings stay…

Visiting paradise…

Relaxing til the end…