Love sick

I miss you so much its sickening... I toss and turn every night... I cry silent tears behind the seams of my heart... Pray it's no longer broken... My eyes burn wide open til dawn the next morn... As I mourn the thought of love... Insomnia replaces a once restful life...

Restless like a puppy... Sleepless like the sea... Stolen moments... Frozen in time and space... Condescending visits leave me feeling empty... No progression... But no loss in foothold... Delusional??? Maybe... Lost??? Definitely... Confused...

A kiss... A lustrous kiss... Hurts me... Pains me... Poison of my mind... You crawled into me... Stole my sanity... Love... Love is that what you are... A serrated edge... Cutting me deep... Letting in all the poison...

That wretched feeling... Morbid... Sick... Disgusted... With the thought that all of my joy was gone... Love a metaphysical dilemma that seems to not give a damn about me... I did it on purpose... I loved on purpose...

Left open... Vulnerable... Naked... Empty... Taken... numb...

My love is to beautiful to be thrown back in my face... Your version of love is to tainted... Yet you loved me until I was sick...

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Remembering Summer

As I lay here bored and restless I can't help but remember summer time... Remembering the warmth I use to feel at night... The comfort of being held like a baby... The long walks through the city... The endless movie nights... The epic gatherings... The sweet somethings that were actual nothings... The thrill of the unknown... The pleasure of the sunrise... The angelic sound of a voice... The bliss found in a smile... Happiness... True friendship... Love... Pleasure...

As I sit here and recall summer I can't wonder why the seasons changed... Where did my happiness go... It slipped away like summer into fall... The leaves changed color... It was beautiful but I wasn't ready... The warmth that once comforted me into the night vanished like the beautiful leaves... Before I knew it I was cold and alone...

I was now in familiar territory... I was here before... Have you ever noticed that not one snowflake is alike... As they began to fall I realized the beauty in each one... I now had time to appreciate what was right in front of me... I let the summer slip away... I truly do miss the summer... The warmth in the breeze... The leaves on the trees... The long walks through the city... Happiness... Love... Pleasure...

I miss it all

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