Weak

When is it time to say enough is enough?

When can I finally give up?

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired

My heart is weak

My mind is scrambled

My emotions are heavy

And I don't know when my body will give in

I'm tired of loving

I'm tired of being strong

I'm tired of falling

Crying has become almost second nature

Why do you ask of me what I can't give?

Why am I expected to stay around?

How could you think that having you partially is enough?

Do you have any intentions of being with me?

I'm sick of feeling like the other one

I'm tired of being second best

I'm sick of life, scared of death

When will I learn to love myself?

Why is loving me is so hard?

Is it impossible?

I'm hurting on the inside

Smiling on the out

Because to tell you how I feel…

Is too much of a burden for you to bear

Because you're confused

I understand where you're coming from

But your life seems to be moving along

While mine is stuck in a infinite loop of disappointment

I want more than you're willing to commit to

But you also want things that I can't afford to give up

I want us to be

But the way things are going it's like it's not to be

What is a life full of accomplishments without someone to share them with?

NOTHING

Leaving me weak and lonely

 

Faith

As doubt sets in my mind

And insecurity sets on my person

I try to remember I trust you

I trust that if I stay strong for you

Inspite of not being strong for myself

That one day we will be

One day your eye will meet my eye

Your soft lips will touch mind

And your angelic spirit will touch my heart

And seal my soul ecstasy

As I remember to trust you

I trust that you are not using me

And the love that you have for me as a person is pure

And you wont turn your back on me

As I give my trust to you

I realize how weak I'm left

Defenseless, unprotected

Infantile almost

Yet, trust is still given

Because of my love of you as a person

My faith in you

Allows me to trust you

But my faith in us

Allows me to trust myself

A wise person said one

Who does not love oneself

Could never love another

But I believe the one

Who does not trust oneself

Could never love another

So do you trust me?

 

Falling

I'm falling towards the pavement

No protection

My arms are tied

My emotions are tried

Nervous system is shattered

Spirit tattered

But never broken

I am what you need

Your noble steed

Something important to transport you from one place to the next

But I can't help but feel insignificant

Because I'm what you need

But not what you want

Realizing this fact my face smacks the ground

Blood pooling around my body

But it doesn't hurt

My feelings are elsewhere

My intentions are to reassure you

I feel my heart stress

I rather make you happy rather then worry about myself

By then it maybe to late

But something in me hopes

You pick me up and help me

I've fallen already

Have you fallen too?

I think you have

But not for me

For the one you love I could never compete

So as my body becomes lifeless

I feel no pain greater

Than the stress of falling in love with you