I'm not quite sure if it's acute love…
Or is it extreme like…
But I do know my good feelings are strong for you…
When I hurt you my heart is heavy…
The tears run like waterfalls…
Your happiness…
Priceless…
I want to show you I'm ready for love...
I dare you to trust me...
I dare you to love me...
I dare you to take a chance...
I fucked up but...
I do my best to fix it...
Just say yes...
And I'll start today...
My love…
My heart…
My friend…
♥
In search of true happiness…
I thought that you were it…
Lol…
Not saying that you didn't make me happy…
But…
You were only a guide…
A point in the right direction so to speak…
You helped me see that I have a problem…
A problem with being happy…
As insane as that may sound I do…
Happiness…
It's just seems unrealistic in my life…
In order to survive I have to have a certain amount of chaos…
I fucked up…
I hurt myself…
I hurt my happiness…
Smh…
A tear is still a tear no matter whose face it rolls down…
I cried for you…
I cried for you because you couldn't cry for yourself…
Your confused…
Your frustrated…
Your stressed…
Your scared…
And I cried for you…
Then I cried for me…
Because I know what I want…
I am frustrated…
I am stressed…
But I'm not scared…
My scars still bleed sometimes…
I cried for you…
But I felt no sympathy…
Because you have it good…
You take for granted what you could have…
But you don't want it…
You hide from what could potentially be Love…
Hmph… Love
L
O
V
E
A word…
A feeling…
A state of being…
Always taken for granted…
I cried for you…
Because I wanted to be you…
Tear….
I don't quite understand my situation…
Why am I always in a position where I lose something…?
Usually something that holds importance to me…
I lost communication with one…
I lost interest in another…
I lost my mind…
I lost respect…
I lost high ground…
Now I'm in defense mode…
But no strength to defend…
Emotions plundered…
Nerves damaged…
Je me sens comme un fou incompetent…
Il a glissé hors de ma vie et dans elses…
mais j'ai déménagé sur…
I've come to the conclusion that I'm not relationship material…
Lol…
I'm Asexual…
Je n'ai pas besoin du sexe ...
J'ai juste besoin d'un baiser…
Je veux un câlin…
Pour se sentir à nouveau desirable…
