The Kiss

Sunny with a slight overcast

Air fresh and crisp

Humidity levels low

Cool air whisking around our bodies

Yet we still sweat

Skin soft like butter

Just me and my lover

On my back gazing into your eyes

You climb on top and kiss my neck

Running your fingertips down my chest

A slight refreshing sigh is released from my mouth

Grabbing your back, I flip you

Ending up on top of you

I gently run my hand through your hair

Slowly bringing my face towards yours

Carefully avoiding your moist full lips I set my eyes on your right ear…

Nibbling and sucking on the lobe

Then change direction to your neck

Up your chin and end up frozen in the ambience of your hazel eyes

Your eyes so innocent and luring

Breaking me from my Trans was the kiss

The kiss that shook me down to my bones

The kiss that sped up my heart and slowed down the world

The kiss that brought a tear to my eye

The kiss that brought me back to real life

That kiss was the kiss of life

Farewell

When is it time to let it go?

Where did the love go?

Why is it not working out?

What brought on this self doubt?

Insecurities…

Feelings not only in oneself but in us.

Feelings of passionate unconditional love once were enough to quiet the restless minds…

Now selfishness oppose to selflessness has consumed us

Patience has run thin

And our love has evolved into an acute sense of resentment.

How could I love you so much and want nothing to do with you?

This isn't us…

This isn't me…

We're part of the same time but are from two completely different places.

In the beginning our hearts were intertwined like a double helix

Inseparable…

Today, we might as well be on two separate continents.

You, let insecurities and serpents tear us apart

Pride

Trust was, is, and will never be there.

Sacrifice no longer an option.

Our people have sacrificed enough

We've sacrificed enough

I've sacrificed enough…

But I'll make one more for us & that is us.

Farewell Love

Farewell

 

 

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Desperate I cant believe im desperate

Because I cant have my own I was jealous of you and yours

Damn!!!

When did… where did… such envy and resentment come to pass???

Self esteem crushed, heart empty, stress levels overloading

Tears are no longer enough

The bottom is rapidly approaching

Depression

I cant trust myself

I second guess my own decisions

Always in a constant panic

My emotions are paper thin

No patience

When will it be my turn?

Broken spirit

Empty promises

Numb

Listen

If listening is one of the most important steps in communication…

Why don't you???

You hear what I'm saying but you don't listen

The pain I feel when you don't listen is almost as painful as the reality that you haven't claimed me as yours

My heart exploded when I thought you did, but I could have died when you said I misunderstood

Listening is one of the things I do best, but at that moment I wish it wasn't

But I'm still lonely

Day in and day out hoping

But wondering what did I do wrong?

Tears

Tears

Tears put me to sleep…

They are caused by the tears on my heart…

Tears are my comforter

The soft wet droplets pool in my eyes at night…

Dampening my pillow and moisturizing my face

Tears brought on by the stress of a unfulfilled life…

Skin never dry

No one to wipe them away…

Tears the expression of a emotion all too painful

Release of pressure the builds everyday…

Tears flow like the Niagara

Never obstructed

Falling to a salty sea of disappointment

Tears roll down…

My face