Responsible

Is there such a thing as being to responsible???? Or maybe taking on too much responsibility…

I don't know because life seems to be passing me by…. My love life is shattered and destroyed but while I'm hurting instead of being my age and stopping everything and crying about it I find myself crying on the run…

The thing that sucks is the people that are my age and I trust have moved on… I feel like old news…. No cares anymore… for me I mean… I think they don't… but hell I'm always at work it's my sanity… the people who have the ability to keep me sane and well are there… they know who they are…

I live to work… I work to live… all I do is work to pay my bills… but it takes a toll on me while everyone is partying I'm working… so how do I coup I create little families everywhere I go… to keep the little bit of sanity I have… I become the best friend that you never had but really… you do more for me than you realize… you keep my focus… you keep me alive… you attract me…

I am too responsible…but without my responsibility to you and myself… I would be dead

Insanity

Love has made me insane… To think that you actually loved me is what is brought me to this conclusion… I mean you said you loved me but somehow the story of us and our relationship doesn't add up…. Was I crazy? Did I miss your memo as to how you fall out of love with someone in 14 days… Come on!!! There has to be an explanation as to why you don't love me anymore right… but no cuz even if I hurt you in the worst way you could resent me, hate me, and want nothing to do with me but still love me….

Love made me insane … I've never loved anyone like you before… Scratch that I've never loved anyone period before… If you not getting the concept of my love I mean I love you as a friend, lover, and a human being… sometimes I felt I loved you more than I loved me… yea that is insane right… but the funny thing is I was… i am still willing to give my life for you… what's not to love right…

Love made me sacrifice my sanity…. All day I think about you… every night I dream about you… I cry over you… ill fight for you… but what do I get… a broken heart????? That SHIT aint fair…. All I want is the best for you…and can you blame me for thinking that's me??? I've never saw myself being with anybody for the rest of my life except you… I've even dreamt of it … that SHIT kills me on the inside… aint it funny how we love the people who ignore us and ignore the people who love us??? But I don't want anyone else because nobody else is you… your unique and even though you were only mine for a short time in my heart it was eternity… and in my mind you'll always be mine…

But what do I know I'm completely insane don't mind me…