Letter to love

Dear love,

Why do you always turn your back on me??? I’m confused, when you appear in my heart I take care of you. I feed you, give you drink, and I try to satisfy your every request to the best of my ability… yet you always run away from me.

What do I do wrong love??? Do I care for you to much??? Do I out love you??? Do I annoy you??? Questions I ask myself because you never answer. Am I too damaged??? I don’t understand you!!!

I do everything the book says… put you first, give you my all, sacrifice for you, love you unconditionally, and even build up you self esteem at the cost of my own.

When it comes you I could never be selfish… I give you all I have… even my last breath if it meant that you would continue to love… why don’t you love me???

It seems that the same energy and passion I give you you continuously give to someone else. I never mean as much to you as you mean to me… and the fun thing is, I don’t think I ever will…. So what do I do… what could I do…. Nothing???

I have nothing left to give… I’m completely vulnerable… hmmm... it’s funny that’s the same time you disappear every time. Leading me to believe that your never gonna be here for me. Left frail, desolate, and bare while you move on to the next.

The only people who are left have there own love… leaving me as alone as I was when you left the umpteenth time. So what to do???

Wait for the cycle to repeat itself… and maybe just maybe I’ll beat you to the punch and then I’ll have my day of temporary happiness… I’m insane… to actually hope for a change.

This is a change even Obama can’t fix or amend…