Pride

Pride is something I don't have much of because every time I turn around I'm swallowing mine for someone else to be happy.

I sacrifice my beliefs and values to keep you around… why??? Because who wants to be alone???

Not I anymore… So to save you the pain and trouble I went through by myself… Locked up in a cage and confined to a room I no longer want to be in… I try to make it work…

I've never been much of a quitter… Even when you constantly spit on me… Instead of walking away or beating the HELL out of you … I put on a shield and grit and bare it…

A fascia that takes the wear and tear of your games that you play with me… It bends but never brakes… My pride for years has been the only thing that kept me from you…

All the denials that I've bared… Because I'd rather be your friend then nothing… All the disappointments like telling me you want to chill and never getting back to me or even worst never showing when you do…

Leaving me longing to be with you but confused and alone… Do I love you???? Too soon to answer… Lust to be with you???? Definitely… But only as a friend to hold and kiss when the time is right…

My pride is saying to let you go and go back to the old me… The BITCH everyone loved to hate… But my body is yearning to be in your presence alone… In your arms… Watching the stars at night…

Pride is a terrible thing if you don't tame it… But if you don't make the right move soon… My pride will be unleashed again…

And you WILL miss out on what I think is a great opportunity…