Clarity

Some say I tell too much

But I say I haven't said enough

What I've been going through…

I could scream or cry at any moment

So what do I do?

Throw myself into work

Create new stress

And bigger disappointments

I have dreams

I have aspirations

But why does responsibility always…

I'm fucked

Mentally

Physically

Emotionally

Fucked

Speaking of emotions

I've been really on edge since I've left that medically induced comatose I called a life

Doctors

Medicines

They all wanted to numb me

Well I wanna feel

I wanna cry

I wanna know what my body and mind are going through…

Torture

My self respect is up

But self esteem lmao

I'm so over caring for Jim James Paul and Tyrone

Cuz something in me says they don't give a damn about me

Selfish

Selfless

Two words that seem to get confused

They think they're doing me a favor

I'm led on and led astray

Constantly confused

Underappreciated

Or unappreciated

I think I make myself very clear

Concise even

Yet my message still seems misconstrued

So what do I do?

What should I do?

Am I crazy?

Is this is all in my head?

Damn it

I need answers

I need the courage to ask those questions

I just need a moment of clarity