How strong is love?

The closer I get to happiness and acceptance

The farther she falls into despair

We can't talk anymore without pain and tears swelling her face up like a bursting water balloon

I can't cry anymore

I'm sick of crying

Fighting and screaming on the inside

I realize that all the pain I feel towards her and myself is self inflicted

I don't love myself

I love her but she still cries

Her heart isn't ready

It's not ready for a relationship between us

It's not ready to let the old me go

I don't want to leave but I can't bear to see another tear roll down her cheek

I can't go another sleepless night wondering if she cares or understands

Can't go another night not knowing how she feeling

How can I love her if I don't have love for myself?

I respect myself

I love her

I love her to death actually

But the question is does she love me enough to be miserable a little while longer?

If she didn't I wouldn't blame her

Because who could ever love someone who doesn't love themselves?

How strong is love?

Because the farther I push her away

The more I realize I need her